i miss season 1-3 like i miss a person

i miss season 1-3 like i miss a person
i just want to grab you all and whisper,
cherish it.

strolling in the spn tag i saw a post titled “why i could never hate cas”
and i thought: wow. i’m pretty sure he pissed me the fuck off at one point and i was glad when they got rid of him at the beginning of this season
and w/ sam although i never “hated” him i got pretty pissed off at him too (season 4 obv)
but dean..no matter what he’s done i always can see his reasoning, maybe not immediately, might take me a few minutes, but yeah i’ve never been truly angry at him and i’m sure i never will.

like he probably thinks dean’s in hell, i wonder if he tried to sell his soul again but no demons would do it or give answers. or i wonder if he’s in soldier mode and become all robotic like he was in mystery spot. I wonder how much he’s cried, he’s truly all alone this time, no bobby to help him ugh. I have what? 4 months to wonder about this.
And Dean….who knows what he seeing and i know he’s scared ugh don’t get me started just

it’s hard to be a fan.

idk about anyone else but i coped with bobby’s death the first time (took a while haha) so whenever his ghost/spirit vanishes this time i’ll be fine.
i think his death was so sad yet perfect, in it’s spn type of way, they should have not brought him back. same w/ jo.
esp. now that his showing signs of turning into another angry spirit (he has good intentions but no, possessing that maid was wrong)
not a care in the world
just sayin
i’m reaching i know
NO THIS IS WHATS HAPPENING OMG EVERYTHING IS LEADING UP TO THAT PART OMG
Ahh is someone actually on the same page with me?!

but part of me is like no b/c the writers would never allow us to predict what really happens in this damn story. ugh we’re being tricked but idc


All I need in this life of sin
is me and my boyfrann brother
Down to ride
to the bloody end
it’s me
and my boyfrann brother

next week episode looks good too. this season has been a roller coaster with hits and misses imo, so after starting to feel meh on this season they got my faith back again

